Sunday, March 13, 2011
STUCK... but DETERMINED TO MOVE.
This song was introduced to me by my ex, who's now one of my current best-friends.
I guess she thought that I could actually relate to it... and she's right.
I guess both of us is now at our breaking point where we've been hurt too many times that we've actually stopped keeping track.
Hopefully, a new chapter's coming and we can really move on from everything. Knowing her, she probably has already. But me, unfortunately, I'm still stuck.
I just wish the heartaches will stop and I can slowly turn over a new leaf.
Sunday, February 20, 2011
stop with the loving and start with the moving on
Why is that most of us can never learn the art of letting go?
Why is everyone stuck in the notion of goodbye bur never really go through with it?
Why is it just so damn hard to move on from something you thought in your heart would last for an eternity?
Why do we keep nursing the pain we're suppose to avoid?
Why do we keep believing the lies?
Why do we keep hanging on and prolonging the agony?
And WHY THE HELL DOES OUR BRAIN AND HEART ALWAYS COLLIDE?!
Happiness and love...
Why the hell is it hard to ask for both?
The line "you can't have a cake and eat it too" is just the most unbearable cliché.
The funny part about everything is that it was never fair from the beginning I guess. It's never gonna be fair, for some reason, someone's gonna fall deep in love and the other will soon fall out of it.
The broken promises of forever...
If only we could stop our hearts and have them re-think and weigh their options.
Unfortunately, the heart wants what it wants. So at the end of the day, it gets satisfied for a mere second and then a lifetime of pain sets in.
Damn. Why the hell do people fall in love?
Don't they know that it's just too damn risky? DANGEROUS? STUPID?
Wasting your time with the one you "love" feeling complete and stuff like that, that makes you feel loved and happy and shit...
Then after that... BOOM!
It's BYE-BYE LOVE.
HAH! Trust me, you wouldn't want that feeling. Abandonment? Loneliness? Broken?
LOVE IS SO OVERRATED.
Why is everyone stuck in the notion of goodbye bur never really go through with it?
Why is it just so damn hard to move on from something you thought in your heart would last for an eternity?
Why do we keep nursing the pain we're suppose to avoid?
Why do we keep believing the lies?
Why do we keep hanging on and prolonging the agony?
And WHY THE HELL DOES OUR BRAIN AND HEART ALWAYS COLLIDE?!
Happiness and love...
Why the hell is it hard to ask for both?
The line "you can't have a cake and eat it too" is just the most unbearable cliché.
The funny part about everything is that it was never fair from the beginning I guess. It's never gonna be fair, for some reason, someone's gonna fall deep in love and the other will soon fall out of it.
The broken promises of forever...
If only we could stop our hearts and have them re-think and weigh their options.
Unfortunately, the heart wants what it wants. So at the end of the day, it gets satisfied for a mere second and then a lifetime of pain sets in.
Damn. Why the hell do people fall in love?
Don't they know that it's just too damn risky? DANGEROUS? STUPID?
Wasting your time with the one you "love" feeling complete and stuff like that, that makes you feel loved and happy and shit...
Then after that... BOOM!
It's BYE-BYE LOVE.
HAH! Trust me, you wouldn't want that feeling. Abandonment? Loneliness? Broken?
LOVE IS SO OVERRATED.
The irony of my silence
They say you need peace to clear your mind and relax...
I may have skipped a few steps 'cause I didn't really get the chance to clear my head... ideas and thoughts swarmed in like a wormhole in space waiting for an asteroid to get sucked in. Are these the undeniable complications everyone gets to have when adolescence sets in?
Have you ever felt the need to shout, just scream your lungs out with every fiber of your being?
Trying to find answers to questions that could never burried with clarity?
Trying to find yourself after losing a battle that you just had no chance of winning?
Every aftermath is just meant for realizations and regrets.
Thinking of a perfect plan, trying to execute every detail perfectly then messing up in just a fraction of a second.
Trying to be someone that's more acceptable rather than being yourself?
Trying to be happy and just ignoring the problems thrown at you but after a while they build up and just blow up for everyone to see?
Trying so hard to hold back the tears 'cause your heart can't take it anymore?
Nothing's meant to be perfected, IMPERFECTIONS make things superb and amazing.
Frankly, contentment is what makes up happiness. There's no such thing as a perfect life, a happy life, or worry-free life. That's just stupid.
No one was ever supposed to be happy forever, you'd still want more after that, you'd probably demand euphoria.
I may have skipped a few steps 'cause I didn't really get the chance to clear my head... ideas and thoughts swarmed in like a wormhole in space waiting for an asteroid to get sucked in. Are these the undeniable complications everyone gets to have when adolescence sets in?
Have you ever felt the need to shout, just scream your lungs out with every fiber of your being?
Trying to find answers to questions that could never burried with clarity?
Trying to find yourself after losing a battle that you just had no chance of winning?
Every aftermath is just meant for realizations and regrets.
Thinking of a perfect plan, trying to execute every detail perfectly then messing up in just a fraction of a second.
Trying to be someone that's more acceptable rather than being yourself?
Trying to be happy and just ignoring the problems thrown at you but after a while they build up and just blow up for everyone to see?
Trying so hard to hold back the tears 'cause your heart can't take it anymore?
Nothing's meant to be perfected, IMPERFECTIONS make things superb and amazing.
Frankly, contentment is what makes up happiness. There's no such thing as a perfect life, a happy life, or worry-free life. That's just stupid.
No one was ever supposed to be happy forever, you'd still want more after that, you'd probably demand euphoria.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
a night before the day where romantic promises linger
CHEERS!
Here's to all the singles, almost-singles, unknowingly-singles, wannabe-singles, sick of being singles, and still-waiting-for-someone singles. HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO YOU. HAHAHAHA You're still FREE. :D CONGRATULATIONS!
Tomorrow you guys will be seeing a whole lot of mushy, sweet, or sometimes undeniably sickening PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION... or EMOTION.
For those who are riding solo tomorrow, there's nothing to be bitter about. :)
Even though most of things you're gonna see tomorrow is mostly couples holding hands, kissing, hugging,laughing, showing the world who they love, how happy they are together, and like there's nothing in this damn world that could ever set them apart. Even the music you'll be hearing will make you scream and just slash your ears off 'cause of the annoying love songs from way back when and also songs of our current generation. Need I suggest that you bring your very own iPod, MP3 players, cd players, PSPs, whatever you could plug into your ears that wouldn't be as annoying would be dandy.
Try and spend time with other single friends!
Watch a movie, go bowling, go get inebriated, read a book, clean your room, or just do something you've never actually done before.
It's not the end of the world if you don't have anyone to canoodle with on the-day-that-must-not-be-named.
So CHILL!
HAVE FUN! :)
Here's to all the singles, almost-singles, unknowingly-singles, wannabe-singles, sick of being singles, and still-waiting-for-someone singles. HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY TO YOU. HAHAHAHA You're still FREE. :D CONGRATULATIONS!
Tomorrow you guys will be seeing a whole lot of mushy, sweet, or sometimes undeniably sickening PUBLIC DISPLAY OF AFFECTION... or EMOTION.
For those who are riding solo tomorrow, there's nothing to be bitter about. :)
Even though most of things you're gonna see tomorrow is mostly couples holding hands, kissing, hugging,laughing, showing the world who they love, how happy they are together, and like there's nothing in this damn world that could ever set them apart. Even the music you'll be hearing will make you scream and just slash your ears off 'cause of the annoying love songs from way back when and also songs of our current generation. Need I suggest that you bring your very own iPod, MP3 players, cd players, PSPs, whatever you could plug into your ears that wouldn't be as annoying would be dandy.
Try and spend time with other single friends!
Watch a movie, go bowling, go get inebriated, read a book, clean your room, or just do something you've never actually done before.
It's not the end of the world if you don't have anyone to canoodle with on the-day-that-must-not-be-named.
So CHILL!
HAVE FUN! :)
Sunday, February 6, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
Monday, January 24, 2011
why the heartache?
The biggest heartache anyone could ever have is when you've done every thing in your power to get things back the way they were before the tears and pain, realizing that nothing's ever gonna go back to normal.EVER.
All the efforts and sacrifices lost. Fighting a losing battle at the end of the day will just leave you exhausted and numb. Knowing that you gave everything you've got, but you still didn't get what you want...
Now your heart is just shattered in a million pieces. Not knowing how to get over the pain, hatred, and depression. Your mind is saying "STOP" but your heart still wants to continue, having all the bruises, it just doesn't want to give in to logic.
You sometimes think how on earth other people get out of this feeling when everyday you wake and you face the reality of being alone, your emotions toyed with, your efforts unappreciated, and your love rejected. You wonder how someone you love can just rip out your guts and throw everything away in just a snap of a finger. You love with all your heart but all you got out of it was tears, allergic reactions to love songs and romantic movies, painful memories, more tears and pain.
You wonder when you'll see the light at the end of that never-ending tunnel and just finally move on from that dark and desolate place you've been sulking in for some time now.
The undeniable pain you feel in your heart though you never see blood gushing out of it, the teary moments you have when you remember the days when you were both happy together, the realization that before you met him/her you were doing well on your own and you're happy just being with friends and living a single life,the stupid questions you hear every damn time an idiot asks you how you've been or how's your ex or how are you holding up, makes you wanna strangle them there and then for being insensitive pricks.
But truth is, it's just how the way world works, the hollowness you feel inside now that you know in your crushed heart that everything's over and there's no chance in hell that the tables will turn for your sake. You just probably want to sleep 'til you lose that heart-wrenching feeling of loneliness and longing for something that you know will never come back.
You want to dream happy dreams but all you get are sleepless nights. You want to do something worthwhile but every time you think about why you want to do it, you're back to square one. Images flashes through your mind that he/she is happy being with someone else and there's not a hint of regret in his/her fuckin' face, no depressing moments to deal with, no sad thoughts to wallow in, not a thing that bothers him/her, they're perfectly happy without you.
All the efforts and sacrifices lost. Fighting a losing battle at the end of the day will just leave you exhausted and numb. Knowing that you gave everything you've got, but you still didn't get what you want...
Now your heart is just shattered in a million pieces. Not knowing how to get over the pain, hatred, and depression. Your mind is saying "STOP" but your heart still wants to continue, having all the bruises, it just doesn't want to give in to logic.
You sometimes think how on earth other people get out of this feeling when everyday you wake and you face the reality of being alone, your emotions toyed with, your efforts unappreciated, and your love rejected. You wonder how someone you love can just rip out your guts and throw everything away in just a snap of a finger. You love with all your heart but all you got out of it was tears, allergic reactions to love songs and romantic movies, painful memories, more tears and pain.
You wonder when you'll see the light at the end of that never-ending tunnel and just finally move on from that dark and desolate place you've been sulking in for some time now.
The undeniable pain you feel in your heart though you never see blood gushing out of it, the teary moments you have when you remember the days when you were both happy together, the realization that before you met him/her you were doing well on your own and you're happy just being with friends and living a single life,the stupid questions you hear every damn time an idiot asks you how you've been or how's your ex or how are you holding up, makes you wanna strangle them there and then for being insensitive pricks.
But truth is, it's just how the way world works, the hollowness you feel inside now that you know in your crushed heart that everything's over and there's no chance in hell that the tables will turn for your sake. You just probably want to sleep 'til you lose that heart-wrenching feeling of loneliness and longing for something that you know will never come back.
You want to dream happy dreams but all you get are sleepless nights. You want to do something worthwhile but every time you think about why you want to do it, you're back to square one. Images flashes through your mind that he/she is happy being with someone else and there's not a hint of regret in his/her fuckin' face, no depressing moments to deal with, no sad thoughts to wallow in, not a thing that bothers him/her, they're perfectly happy without you.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
bad liar
The fact that promises are actually false hopes doesn’t really make me feel better that now I know. I mean, why am I the dumbest person to actually think that I’ll win this f*cked up love game?
Cheers to you!
You not only managed to lose my trust, you have also garnered my hatred. How stupid could you actually be to think that I wouldn’t find out? And to think that you’re not actually sorry for what you did?
CONGRATULATIONS TO ME FOR ACTUALLY THINKING THAT WE DID HAVE A SECOND CHANCE. HOW DUMB AM I FOR BELIEVING?!
I HOPE WHAT YOU DID WAS ALL WORTH IT.
‘CAUSE F*CK IT, I’M ALREADY STATING THIS AS A FACT:
YOU 2-TIMING LIAR. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME BELIEVE YOUR LIES.
I’M PUTTING MY HEART ON SAVE FROM NOW ON… FROM YOU.
Cheers to you!
You not only managed to lose my trust, you have also garnered my hatred. How stupid could you actually be to think that I wouldn’t find out? And to think that you’re not actually sorry for what you did?
CONGRATULATIONS TO ME FOR ACTUALLY THINKING THAT WE DID HAVE A SECOND CHANCE. HOW DUMB AM I FOR BELIEVING?!
I HOPE WHAT YOU DID WAS ALL WORTH IT.
‘CAUSE F*CK IT, I’M ALREADY STATING THIS AS A FACT:
YOU 2-TIMING LIAR. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME BELIEVE YOUR LIES.
I’M PUTTING MY HEART ON SAVE FROM NOW ON… FROM YOU.
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