why the heartache?

The biggest heartache anyone could ever have is when you've done every thing in your power to get things back the way they were before the tears and pain, realizing that nothing's ever gonna go back to normal.EVER.

All the efforts and sacrifices lost. Fighting a losing battle at the end of the day will just leave you exhausted and numb. Knowing that you gave everything you've got, but you still didn't get what you want...

Now your heart is just shattered in a million pieces. Not knowing how to get over the pain, hatred, and depression. Your mind is saying "STOP" but your heart still wants to continue, having all the bruises, it just doesn't want to give in to logic.

You sometimes think how on earth other people get out of this feeling when everyday you wake and you face the reality of being alone, your emotions toyed with, your efforts unappreciated, and your love rejected. You wonder how someone you love can just rip out your guts and throw everything away in just a snap of a finger. You love with all your heart but all you got out of it was tears, allergic reactions to love songs and romantic movies, painful memories, more tears and pain.

You wonder when you'll see the light at the end of that never-ending tunnel and just finally move on from that dark and desolate place you've been sulking in for some time now.

The undeniable pain you feel in your heart though you never see blood gushing out of it, the teary moments you have when you remember the days when you were both happy together, the realization that before you met him/her you were doing well on your own and you're happy just being with friends and living a single life,the stupid questions you hear every damn time an idiot asks you how you've been or how's your ex or how are you holding up, makes you wanna strangle them there and then for being insensitive pricks.

But truth is, it's just how the way world works, the hollowness you feel inside now that you know in your crushed heart that everything's over and there's no chance in hell that the tables will turn for your sake. You just probably want to sleep 'til you lose that heart-wrenching feeling of loneliness and longing for something that you know will never come back.

You want to dream happy dreams but all you get are sleepless nights. You want to do something worthwhile but every time you think about why you want to do it, you're back to square one. Images flashes through your mind that he/she is happy being with someone else and there's not a hint of regret in his/her fuckin' face, no depressing moments to deal with, no sad thoughts to wallow in, not a thing that bothers him/her, they're perfectly happy without you.

bad liar

The fact that promises are actually false hopes doesn’t really make me feel better that now I know. I mean, why am I the dumbest person to actually think that I’ll win this f*cked up love game?

Cheers to you!
You not only managed to lose my trust, you have also garnered my hatred. How stupid could you actually be to think that I wouldn’t find out? And to think that you’re not actually sorry for what you did?

CONGRATULATIONS TO ME FOR ACTUALLY THINKING THAT WE DID HAVE A SECOND CHANCE. HOW DUMB AM I FOR BELIEVING?!

I HOPE WHAT YOU DID WAS ALL WORTH IT.
‘CAUSE F*CK IT, I’M ALREADY STATING THIS AS A FACT:

YOU 2-TIMING LIAR. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME BELIEVE YOUR LIES.
I’M PUTTING MY HEART ON SAVE FROM NOW ON… FROM YOU.